Tuesday, February 16, 2010

well here we go again, you've found yourself a friend that knows you well, but no matter what you do you'll always feel as though you tripped and fell

so one old friend is going to cuba, one ex is in a relationship with someone new and i stay the same, one relative is out of the hospital and another is being moved into a care facility, mom is gone again, sister has moved on to the next attempt to define herself by the relationship she is in, one inspiration is questioning her occupational choices, one childhood best friend finally found a job in his chosen field almost a year after graduating with his masters degree and now has to find a new place to live, one childhood best friends wife just got laid off, the same day he started his new job. one pair of black and red boots i wore this week, one rejection letter, one day of kayaking in howard's hole on the jordan river, one conversation about why i'm not married, one conversation about why i'm not marrying the girl i spend more time with than anyone else in my life right now, one weigh-in with a physical trainer to learn i've lost 9 pounds, 4% body fat, and taken 4 inches of of my waist in the last 5 weeks, one pile of papers i was supposed to grade but lost so i gave all of my students full points to not have to admit that i screwed up, one shower in the last 4 days, one time i actually looked up what i have to do to join the peace corps and get the hell out of the country, one album downloaded (new citizen cope the rainwater lp, highly recommend it), una olla de caldo de res homemade just like lidia buenfil used to make, one balanced checkbook (easy when it's zero), one load of laundry left to do after not doing laundry for three weeks and trying to get clean cloths to wear, one new station created on pandora that i can't get enough of, one time i thought about calling a friend this weekend and didn't, one churrasco palta i plan on eating this wednesday, one more time that i looked down and missed having OPI finger nail polish on, one more time that i wanted to explain what has been going on in my life over the last few months.

when you have completed what you thought you had to do and your bloods depleted to the point of stable glue then you'll get along. steady as she goes, are you steady now?

4 comments:

Ben said...

You can call if you need to. And you can join the peace corps if you need to. You don't have to do anything that doesn't make you happy. Although some things don't bring happiness until later. If you fall off the face of the planet, drop me a line from time to time and let me know you're okay.

Pablo said...

Steady as she goes...

Mac said...

Dr. Shumway's (History Dept.) sister is either in or was in the Peace Corps. He's cool and easy to talk to, though I can't say if he knows shiz about the ceace porps.
I'll tell you one thing, I check your blog way too much for you to not write on it.
Do me a favor, eat some Utah snow for me (duh, no yellow snow), this New Jersey snow tastes like the dregs of capitalism.

rantipoler said...

Sometimes I hate life. But seeing as how it's difficult to escape, I keep moving forward. I don't know what else can be done about it.